I scrolled down the list of previous entries and read a couple of them. They did brought back some memories, be it good or bad.

Whilst chatting with him on MSN, I suddenly felt the tinge of coldness. It seemed as though we were friends, just normal friends. Our conversation grew from juicy topics to.....er..a little more than hello-bye?

The class problem has been solved, now the love problem. I can be a leader in work or a good friend to people, but seriously I think I am a failure in relationship. The last couple of days had been really terrible, I tried to ask myself what's the problem within. At night, just before I falling asleep, I thought of the incidents which we went through. Happy or sad.

I know he's reading this, but I am really in a state of confusion. There are things that are really turning me off and yet memories that urge me to keep it going. I don't have the courage to face the consequences and the worse thing is, I don't even know what I want after being in deep thoughts for days.

The laughs we had and the sacrifices he made for me can never be replaced, not a single bit. At times, I really feel that I'm not worthy at all 'cos I don't make big sacrifices as he did. Instead, I only scar his life with commitments, unhappiness, distrust, waste of youth.

I really don't know how things will turn out to be and I don't wish to even think about it. I am just afraid and what I can do is only, cry. Maybe things will just go back to normal, or perhaps, at the end of this love story, we have to put that full-stop there.

I need someone to counsel me.

Shayna sang @ 4:48 PM

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