Trust me, I did tried not to look back. But those are were afterall once a major part of my life.

I thought I am someone who will be able to get over this and I tried to keep myself occupied and happy, at the same time trying not to think of what happened between us. But, everytime I meet up with my friends and tell them about us, I can’t stop those memories from flowing into my mind. Just like last night when I attended Hui Ling(SEZ)’s ROM cum bbq party. Though I am one really emotional person(my tears can’t stop flowing once they start), but I always try to keep the smile on my face. I try to be happy. Rather, I tried.

I don’t know if I am feeling all these out of the “sour feeling” mentioned previously, because I know deep in my heart, it is still lingering on. We still contact each other through SMS but we are losing the friendliness that we once used to share. And very often both of us end up being unhappy after a few lines.

Perhaps like what Hui Ling said last night… “what is meant to be is meant to be..”

*slaps face* maybe it’s time I get that sourgrape feeling out of my soul *sobs* :(

Shayna sang @ 5:45 PM

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